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"And the blog is back, but not the blogger."
It’s been a month. And it feels like it was one of the longest months of my life. I know exactly that it was all my fault. I’m sorry that it has to end that way. I’m sorry that saying sorry is all that I can do.
Naka-1 month na pero eto padin ako. Mahirap pala talaga na mag-move on. Kala ko kasi dati kadramahan lang nung mga blogger yung hindi sila makamove on. Ngayon alam at ramdam ko na kung ano ang pinagdaanan nila. Bakit nga ba kasi ang gago ko. Wala ka naman talagang nagawang mali sa relasyon natin. Alam ko naman na mahal mo ako, hanggang ngayon pinagsisisihan ko padin kung ano yung nagawa ko.
Nagkulang ako. Sa pagpaparamdam na mahal na mahal kita, sa pag-aalaga sayo, sa pag paparamdam na importante ka at sa pagsasabi kung gaano ako nagpapasalamat sa Diyos na dumating ka sa buhay ko. Kung hindi lang sana ako topakin , sana nandito ka pa. Sana may nagmamahal pa saken, sana nakabawi man lang ako sa lahat ng ginawa mong mabuti. Sana hindi ka na nasaktan…
Hindi ko naman pinlano na makipaghiwalay sayo o i-let go kahit pa hihilingin mo. Inaamin ko, gago ako dahil binitawan ko yung kamay mo. :’( Ngayon nakikita kitang parang wala ng ganang ma-inlove ulit. Patawad babe, kasalanan ko ang lahat.
Kahit pa anong pagkumbinsi sa sarili ko na bumalik na sa dating ako hindi ko padin magawa. Kasi yung bahagi ng buhay ko ang tagal na umikot sayo. Hindi ko nga alam kung bakit naka 1 month na e ganito padin ako kaapektado.
It feels like it was just yesterday. Yung sakit na nararamdaman ko, kasing sakit padin nung unang gabi na natulog ako na alam kong wala ka na sa buhay ko. Ang hirap kasi alam kong ayaw mo na akong maging bahagi ulit ng buhay mo. Ang hirap at ang sakit.
Please excuse me for being inactive this past 2 days for I have very important matters to deal with. I was so busy. That was the reason why I haven’t posted anything meaningful. I have tons of assignments, a reaction paper to finish and a life to fix. I’m sorry. I hope you understand.
I’m hoping for your very kind consideration.
I got this from the person who posted this.
I don’t know how to start what ever I gonna tell.
Obviously, it’s me that was put into the blind item. I’ve read that post less than five times to completely understand where he is coming from and what he is up to. Yes, it’s too mean to send a message about the “unfollow” thing but I have to say that when I’ve composed that message, I don’t have even a tiny speck of intention to offend him. SRSLY. I don’t think that the message should go this far.
If this happened to me, I could not promise to not act the way he did. But I’m pretty sure that I’ll be brave enough to let him know that I have just put him in a post such of what’s above. I don’t know if I should thank him for not mentioning my tumblr name. If I you think I should then I extend my gratitude. Allow me to say it once more, I don’t have any intention to make you feel that I didn’t appreciate you. And to the “utang na loob”, seriously, I didn’t expect anybody to return me a favor every time they follow me.
Walang masama sa pag.unfollow, kung hindi mo na din talaga gusto ang posts ko. Alam mo at lahat ng tao dito sa tumblr na free ang pag.unfollow. If you misinterpreted my message, I can’t blame you. Nung pinaulit-ulit ko din yung pagbasa sa message ko naisip ko na naging unbecoming din ako.
If visiting TAs and putting there words that you feel is wrong then I must admit that I’ve sinned. Go put guns in my head as you run your knife through my body. If that’s all or even more than that is what I should receive then be it. Kung pag.express lang din naman ang naging dahilan ng pagkakamali ko, I am sorry. What I’m trying to say is that I’m sorry If you’re offended. If I had that purpose of just putting you stress, I could have asked you and went anonymous. I went to your blog with my name-my blog. I came there knowing that If you read the message, you’ll know that it’s me. You’ll know who I am and you’ll now where to send your reaction.
Nangyari na ang nangyari. I just really want to apologize and let you know my how I feel about this. This will not change anything, I will continue expressing my thoughts and if a time would come that this will happen again, please, Let us all be civilized persons.