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"And the blog is back, but not the blogger."
I was once broken. But look at me now, i’m back in track. People would always say that break up ruins life. That may be true. But for me, I see break up as something that would make you think about things and look at it in deeper perspective. It’s teaching you that just because you love someone and you want that person so badly, doesn’t mean you should end up being together for the rest of your lives. That just because the relationship ended doesn’t mean it wasn’t true love.
It happens — people walk away from people they love and take different paths. And maybe the brighter side of breaking up is it sets you free. It’s ironic, isn’t it? “brighter side of being broken”. In that very moment after the 3-month rule, you have your life back. And from there you can start putting all the broken little pieces back together. It may be hard, but one thing I’ve learned in life is we should keep going."
98 days after the break up. The 3-month rule was finish. We are officially freed from our previous relationship. I don’t want to say that it’s my “past” relationship because I know that i’m not completely over it yet. This is how hard moving on is. I never really thought it would be this tiring. You know, doing things in a day making your self believe that you don’t miss her anymore and when the day is over you’ll just break down because the truth is she never left your mind.
98 days have passed and I can’t even say that I’ve already moved on. This was never easy. I make people think that i’m actually fine although memories always haunt me. Sometimes i’m fine but most of the times when I think of her, I always feel bad for myself — for losing the person I thought would be my lifetime partner.
98 days, I hate that i’m good in counting. I just can’t forget the day she said good bye. It’s been more than three months, yes, time passed by so fast. Last night, we talked to each other, I can’t make my self not care for her. It’s late and she’s not yet home. So I texted her and she told me about what happened. The exchange of messages was not like before anymore, just like what I expected. And I worry so I tried to suggest some help, but she said that she can do it by herself. Yes, maybe she can now. The "kaya natin ‘to" turned into “kaya ko na.”
The 3-Month Rule. It says that after the break up both of you
should wait for 3 months before entering a relationship again. It's
a protocol. It isn't really mandated but if you respect your partner
enough, you'll obey this rule. And that maybe during those 3 months
you'll both realize whether you should come back to each other or
just let go.
91st day after the break up — 5 640 hours, 327 600 minutes, 19 565 000 seconds.Tell me, how do you want me to count how long the person I love was gone? This is the day when I should set her free, the day I have to let go. Also the day to accept that it’s over — that no matter how I badly want it to last, it’s now gone.From this day forward I lose all my right to her. I can no longer tell her what she must do, I can’t ask about her life anymore, I should not show as much love that I have for her before. Because basically, things are different now. She’s not mine anymore.
I can't hold her hand anymore whenever I want to. I can't kiss her anywhere. I can't hug her when we meet. I can't say that I love her more often, I should not do that because from now on, she got her life back to herself and to whoever she would fall in love with. I'm not the best person to protect her because i'm no longer his man. But I will still care for her and would always love her. Because I still believe that being in love with her is one of the best things that ever happened to my life.
This ugly heart I have will always long for her. Because feelings will stay forever. And if she’s happy with someone else now, I should be happy too. I want her to be genuinely happy. Maybe our “forever” is not bound to exist in this lifetime. And even if this is how things end up, she’ll always be my “the one who got away.”
Ang hirap kapag inuunti unti kang iwan ng taong sobrang mahal mo. Minsan akala kasi okay yun para hindi ka daw masyado masaktan pero sa totoo lang ang sakit nung pinaparamdam niya sayo na mawawala na siya sa buhay mo. Yung parang pinuputol niya muna yung mga paa mo para hindi ka na lumapit sa kanya, yung bibig mo para di mo na siya kausapin, yung mga kamay mo para di mo na siya yakapin at hawakan ang mga kamay niya.
Yung nararamdaman mong unti unti ka niyang binubura sa buhay niya, sobrang sakit nun. Kasi ang hirap kapag nawala yung sobrang mahal mo at nasanay ka nang andiyan siya. Yung sistema ng katawan mo palagi siyang hinahanap. Yung usapan, paglalambingan, mga yakap, halik at iba pang mga memories na hindi naman basta bastang mawawala na parang unti unti niyang tinatanggal sayo. Wala talagang madali at hindi masakit na paraaan para iwan ang isang tao lalo na kung mahal na mahal ka niya. Kaya sana wala nalang iwanan. Lalo na kung handa ka namang ipaglaban at panindigan. :(
Six Degrees of Separation
First, you think the worst is a broken heart
What’s gonna kill you is the second part
And the third, is when your world splits down the middle
And fourth, you’re gonna think that you fixed yourself
Fifth, you see them out with someone else
And the sixth, is when you admit that you may
have messed up a little.
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